>> Sunday, October 18, 2009
I've been reading the book The Pursuit of Holiness by Jerry Bridges. How unsettling it is to notice how far I have come in my walk with the Lord, but also how far I need to go!! My family and I have made big steps in our walk toward holiness, changing a lot of viewing choices and activities that lead to nowhere. It has actually been the best decisions we have made. We have noticed big changes in ourselves and how we view the world. But as I read this awesome book and realize that, even though I have come so far, my heart is still deceitful and sin still rules me. I have been rescued from sin's dominion in my life, but I still allow sin to rule me!! I still deal with major sins in my life. Jerry Bridges also wrote a book called Respectable Sins, and in it he shows us how, as Christians we tolerate so many "respectable" sins in our lives while being intolerant of the world's Big Sins. Does God just overlook our "little" sins while He should be punishing the world for their "big" sins? I'm learning that God looks at my problem with anger and criticism just as He looks at those "big sins". I'm thankful that I serve a Loving God that is patient with me. May He grant me grace to choose Holiness over the little things that make me angry. May He grant me grace to choose Holiness when I want to be critical of someone!! This pursuit is HARD, but I want it, even if it kills me!!