>> Friday, July 16, 2010
Nevertheless she will be saved in childbearing if they continue in faith, love, and holiness, with self-control. 1 Timothy 2:15
As I sit here for another day waiting for baby Noah to enter this world, I decided to turn my attentions to the holy calling of motherhood. And the view that the Lord has of children.
First of all, I had to repent for not keeping my eyes "on the prize", and for complaining instead. Yes, I've been so focused on being uncomfortable and miserable, and complaining about it all. And I have not been too easy to live with, either. So, I made a conscious decision today to change my focus while I wait.
This Scripture speaks a lot to me. First of all, it is NOT saying that the only way for women to be saved is through childbirth. No. Our salvation is through Jesus Christ alone, and not by our works in the flesh... which would include childbearing. This is talking about our calling as mothers and how we are to fulfill it and the future rewards for it.
So, how is it then that we would be saved through childbearing???
First and foremost, we would be saved from ourselves!!! Our sin natures!!! I can honestly say that God has shown me my TRUE SELF through my kids!!! It's funny that being married doesn't do that... BUT being a parent does!
Over the years of being a mom, God has graciously shown me my SELFISHNESS, PRIDE, ANGER ISSUES, MY MOUTH ISSUES...(MY WORDS), etc., etc., and etc.! The list could go on and on. The Lord has revealed to me the condition of my heart! And I have to say that I am truly thankful for that. It has not been easy to face it, and it certainly is not easy dealing with it, BUT my Lord is a good God and a gracious God Who is working in me to change me for His glory and for my good!!!
Wonderful, Beautiful is what You see
When You look at me.
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
a perfect tapestry!
The Real Me by Natalie Grant
Now, we have to look at the rest of the verse. Considering the fact that we, as mothers, will one day answer to God (and not man) about how we fulfilled our calling as mothers, we should really take a closer look at the rest of the verse. "...If they continue in faith, love, and holiness, with self-control."
Childbearing, child rearing, or child training, can become mundane, irritating, and downright horrible and unfulfilling...IF we let it. But if we walk by faith, walk in unconditional love like Christ did, pursue that holiness that God requires, and learn self-control...THEN and only THEN will we be rewarded in our efforts.
Being a mom is definitely a Holy Calling! And I have to remind myself of that. Not only are the kids learning about themselves and about me, but I am learning about myself, as well. As the kids grow up, so am I!! So, I have to ask myself...
Am I walking by faith, or am I keeping my eyes on the problems???
Am I walking in love as Christ did, or am I being conditional with my love?
Am I continually pursuing holiness, or am I pursuing my wants and desires?
And the best for last... Am I learning self-control, or am I continually losing control???
This is a high calling, for sure!!! A noble calling! A holy calling! One that I love and desire to grow in. One that I despise at times because it can be so hard! But, HE is changing me and purifying me for His glory and for my good!!!
Lord, my solemn prayer is for You to continue working in me Your Presence and Your Love to change me and purify me. You have blessed me tremendously with two boys, and now with another one on the way. How humbled I am that You would entrust me to them. I know that I have screwed up so many times, but You can redeem it all!! I put my trust in You and only You to help me in this high and holy calling. My flesh is weak, but I am strong in You. I will continually remind myself to "rejoice in Christ Jesus, and have no confidence in the flesh." Thank You for "turning the tattered fabric of my life into a perfect tapestry." I humbly and gratefully pray this in Your Precious and Holy Name. Amen