>> Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Yes, it's true... I need an attitude adjustment. I admit it. Being a new mom, with a colicky baby, is not easy. But that's not all. I have 2 other kids who need me, a home that is in dire need of a deep cleaning, meals to cook that would include REAL food, homeschool plans to be made and organized, and let's not forget the dear hubby!!
But that nagging question keeps popping up in my head: "Well, what about me?"
Can someone please take this crying baby from me and soothe him while I go hide in a quiet room??
Can someone please cook me a home cooked meal, instead of offering fast food???
Can someone please get down on that floor and clean it thoroughly?? And what about those toilets?? A thorough vacuuming would be nice.
Well, I can forget about someone doing the homeschool plans. That is something only I can do. I am the primary teacher and planner, so dh can't really help in that. And the kids certainly don't want to help with this one... Why would they want to hurry and get back to school work???
Yes, I admit it, this has not been easy for me! As I hold my little arrow all day long, all I can seem to think about is all of the stuff not getting done. But what about my attitude in all of this?
Well, its obvious that I need an adjustment!!
Where do I need to go for this adjustment? Of course, God's Word! What do I need to be meditating on from His Word? This is it...
"Greater Love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends." John 15:13
I've been reading the chapter of The Servant Mother in Sally Clarkson's book The Mission of Motherhood, and boy do I need this chapter right now. I believe Mrs. Clarkson wrote this chapter for me!!! She knew that I was going to need this one day... Actually, God knew that I would need it, so He caused her to write it for me!! This is just a glimpse of the chapter...
What does it mean to practice servant leadership as a mother? I believe it starts out with a choice. I have to choose to serve Christ by giving my time and energy to my children- not just when I feel like it but when they need me. This means I often must sacrifice my own needs and desires for the purpose of giving my children what they need and modeling for them the depths of Christ's love.
Wow! I need to chew on that one!!! And another powerful one...
But what is my sacrifice compared to the one Jesus made?
How can I possibly complain when I consider Christ's sacrifice for me?? I deserve a spanking every time I complain about not having any "me" time, or anything else!! When I think about Jesus and His sacrificial life and death, how can I complain? There is the adjustment!!
He laid down His life for me, so to show my love and appreciation, I should lay down my life for my family. And in doing so, I am laying down my life for my Savior! I thank God for His grace to enable me to do this. Moment by moment I need to choose to forget myself and my needs and wants, and to consider their needs and wants.
My attitude is always a choice!!
I hope I can remember this tonight when my little arrow is screaming his lungs out... And when he wants to nurse every 15 minutes... And when the computer is too slow while he is sleeping, then he wakes up just as it is beginning to work...
Attitude... what will it be??
Please pray for me!