>> Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Already Thanksgiving is upon us, and next will be Christmas! Where has the time gone? This time of the year can be very stressful if we let it, but can also be a time of reflection and joy.
But other than the seasonal holidays that we celebrate, we also go through "seasons" in life.
To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1I am definitely in a season! And what a season it is! After the last few weeks of constant trials, I finally asked the Lord, "What is going on??? Why can I not catch a break?? Each and every week brings another, if not several, new challenges and trials. And all at once! What is going on??"
I must admit that some of these trials have been so hard and exhausting that I haven't handled them very well. And then I am reminded...
"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." James 1:2-3And boy do I need patience!! So, what do I take from this? I am in a season of testing. To test my faith. And to produce patience in me.
Today, I was meditating on this, and the Lord told me that I need to enjoy the time. I need to sit back and enjoy this season!! Can you imagine enjoying trials?? "Count it all joy!" I need to enjoy this time with my baby, even though nothing is getting done. Piles are getting larger, dust is getting thicker, meals are getting to be a rare occasion, our kids are getting an inconsistent education, the flu is raging AGAIN, sleep is nonexistent, and its all getting to me! I so want to enjoy this time...BUT...
I need to have some sense of order, a routine, a way to be rid of the chaos!! I need peace. I need my home to be clean and orderly. I need life to calm down, to give me just a day to get things back together. I need to catch up!! Once I plan to clean and to catch up, something else happens...again. Every week has been like that since I had the baby. Every week has been days of constant trials, always something new and different, but always the same...trials!
Am I complaining? Yes! Do I want to have a better attitude? Yes! Is it possible for me to even consider enjoying this season? I guess. I know that I will have to make a conscious choice to enjoy it. (As I am typing this, which has now taken me 2 and a half hours to do, my baby is screaming!) Right now in this moment I choose to enjoy, but its being quite difficult. My patience is thinning.
Tomorrow I will choose to enjoy... by God's grace.
And I will be thankful in my circumstances... by God's grace.